Happiness is a fish...

Happiness is a fish is one of my favorite songs from a band called Our Lady Peace and it has nothing to do with this post but I liked it so there it is...
I feel so extremely overwhelmed and at the same time like the Lord will not forsake us. He has delivered us from much worse; but in my mind there are another several thousand families who are faithful, hardworking, and educated who are losing their homes right now and I wonder if this isn't possibly the worst time to get out of the military. It was totally out of Jaxon and my hands and that's a little helpful-I guess. I am in a constant state of panic feeling in a sort that we are preparing to be homeless even though if we don't have a job yet we can stay at Jaxon's folks-that is a last case scenario. BUT, then I walk upstairs and find Jaxon on his cell phone while holding the house phone and typing on line all to different head hunters and various Nuclear Power Companies. I can hear him selling himself and sounding so proficient and eloquent but humble. We have had several opportunities already that I have shot down (get that 'I' shot down) because I am not going to live in a rinky dink down where I have to sew my own son up because they don't have a doctor and I want awesome schools etc...
Right now we have prospects in Baltimore, Oahma, and Corpus Christy. I am looking at everything from the school drop out rate to where a great grocery store chain is. Yet, I am finding that we can be happy anywhere. I know I can suck up a small town for a while or the big city. I know that we will make it and I know that I will have faith that where ever we go is where Heavenly Father wants us. I just hope he wants us there SOON!

Supermodel...

As I sit in my bathtub (which I do at some point daily) ravaging my Vanity Fair, Vogue and Allure magazines (which I cannot live without) I am reading an article on the 'unpretentious' Supermodel Giselle Bunchon. This time I am just praying that we go somewhere warm when we move like the beautiful backdrop for these lovely photos. I am seeing someone who by the worlds standards is the most breathtaking person. Who is a chameleon by trade and can turn a party upside down. Then swiftly entering my place of peace, comes in, the most beautiful creature. Someone who can change daily and throw a party upside down as well. My Alexzondra Renee. I might never understand why we were supposed to live here or if any lives were touched for the better because of us; but I do know that this is where we had our Miss. Allie who is the most amazing daughter. I might never see her in Vogue (I might not want too) but I could be wrong. I just hope she feels loved and magical and beautiful and wanted.
So, I put down Giselle and wrap her and I up in my fluffy bath towel and have a few sacred moments. She is breathtaking and she is mine. Perhaps I will have more love in my heart for this place after all?

The annoying neighbor...

There is this neighbor that lives across the street from the Potter Family who is always asking for stuff. Always pawning kids off on them. Always barging in needing something or asking for help. Always calling needing a 'favor'. That annoying family, my dear friends- IS MINE!
I don't know what I did before they lived here or if I have always been so needy but they save our lives on a daily basis. I think I will miss this family so much more than I realize when we move. Jackie has helped me on silly things-like deciding which shoes to wear; and serious things-like my darkest moments when I just needed her to listen. She is beautiful and so much more balanced than I think Ill ever be.
Kirk has been so wonderful to Jaxon and I think they have become a sort of 'man-buddies' (to the extent Jaxon has friends anyway). Their wonderful boys- Tyler and Derek are a ball to have over. They play so beautifully with Korbin. Usually Miss. Allie just terrorizes them and they put up with it time and time again.
There have been many prayers for this sweet family with the newest addition coming this summer. We are so very sad that we will not be here to meet her but we know that she is coming to the most worthy, giving, fun, involved and delighted parents.
Thank you for allowing our craziness into your lives and bailing us out by giving a cup of milk or by just being great friends. We will miss you dearly and thank you for everything!!
P.S. BTW-can I borrow a 1/2 cup of sugar?

I just love...

I just LOVE
Sleeping Beauty
I think it is done so well and no one can complain about that voice!
I just might sit down and watch it all the way through-that is a feat for me!

Cookies

Now that I am leaving several people have asked for this recipe so here goes, I must add; not to sound bratty but I think that the difference in my cookie recipe is my ingredients! I mostly use super fresh egg from Jaxons parents and I use very strong Mexican Vanilla, and I use Cane Juice Sugar which is exactly like regular sugar its just not refined white sugar. I buy it that at Costco. And everything else besides the Crisco is organic. My friend Jackie said she thought it made a difference but you can make them any which way you would like. And credit goes to my little brother Lee who tweaked this recipe for a few years till he got it right.
1 c. butter flavored Crisco
3/4 c. white sugar
3/4 c. brown sugar
2 eggs

cream all that together then add

1 tsp. each of vanilla/baking soda/salt

cream till texture is a bit lighter looking and puffier. add

2 1/2 c. flour

mix in and add a tiny bit if needed but you want it to sit up a bit on your fingers but be sticky.

Add lots of Semi-sweet chocolate chip about 4 hand fulls. Jaxon thinks that the dough should just be there to hold the chips together!

Bake in a 375 degree oven, on a baking stone for 12 minutes. NOW- when you take them out of the oven leave them on the cookie stone for a good few minutes. When you take them out of the oven they should look like they might need a minute more but that's why you leave them on the stone, they will bake slightly but remain the goey, creamy texture.
Put on a wire cookie rack and eat as soon as possible. They are best warm. I have no idea how many they make because we consume half the dough before we are done!
I hope someone one likes these!!! Have a great day. Dang it I am salivating and I am off to the gym!!! AAhhh!