I do 5 year old though!!

Yesterday Korbin told me that when he goes to school he had decided that he had the best mom ever. Theses are the reasons he gave me:
I let him get dressed himself in whatever he wants to wear as long as its school clothes.
He has a mowhawk.(he thinks he does-its kinda of a fauxhawk)
He gets to have sleepovers.
He has a little sister who is not yucky-unless she poops.
He gets to bring whatever he wants to snack and yes we bought lunchables for every kid.
He has a really fun dad with a Jeep.
And last but not least, he is allowed to ride his bike in the rain. (that must be why he has chronic runny nose)
I will take this as the sweetest form of gratitude my Korbin could muster. He clearly thought long and hard about this and wants to make sure theses things don't stop. After he told me all this he asked for a hug told me he loved me and went off to fetch Tyler Potter from the bus stop. I think I got what I wanted for Christmas. A child who is appreciative of his life. Come on Allie----- We'll get there someday!!

I dont do babies.

Last night we were talking about if we like our kids. Yep, that's right. How do you like Korbin? What about Allie? They are pretty good. Yeah I love them. Me too. Then- I was kind of thinking it was a joke and Jax say's 'Yeah but sometimes you act like you don't REALLY like her.' And it hurt my feelings.
This morning: I woke up re energized to become the most amazing mother the world has ever seen. I said my prayers asking God to help me be the best mom ever so no one could ever even think that I don't like my own lovely child.
AND THEN...
She woke up so cute and screaming and super poopy (so much so that I had to bathe her and change the sheets and start a new load of wash) then she didn't want to eat the super healthy Kashi waffles and pureed apples I created for her. I got her dressed super cute and before I got in the shower myself we had to put on another creation because she decided to find a crayon (in this immaculate house-how dare she!) and eat it. After outfit 2 I rushed into the shower only to hear her screams right outside the curtain. The fastest shower in the history of man was taken and so I popped out only to find every tampon and pantyliner (from Costco-so you know there were allot) strewn about while she diligently attempted to crack open the crown jewel; my make up case. Now that's something I don't take lightly because I look like two different people with and without makeup. So the makeup stays in The Samsonite Oyster a fireproof leak proof luggage type thing. SHE IS A GENIUS and opened it. So, my naked self was running about putting her in one part of the house so I may clothe and paint myself in another part of the house. But no, it becomes too quiet and I shout for Korbin who is blissfully destroying his room while I am trying to get dressed. Miss. Allie is rearranging our pantry. No harm done I think let her do it and I might be able to flat iron my hair. Up she comes with a bag of pretzels larger than herself and assumes I will open them in my bathroom and let her at it. I gave her one. She screams. She gets two and no more. She proceeds to scream. I let her because the sooner I get ready the sooner we may be in public where I am most certainly nice to my children. All of this was well before 9 am. you can imagine the rest of the day........
So the next time my husband says something along the lines of 'So DO you really like Allie?' I will be prepared to tell him.
NOT RIGHT NOW!
Yes she is beautiful, Yes she is sweet, Yes she is mine and I wouldn't trade her but as of this moment I have accepted that I am not a baby person and I am okay with that. Someday when she brings home a icky boyfriend I will wish for this day again but as of tonight I will not be praying to be a better mother I will be praying she will live long enough to get the icky boyfriend so I will cross that bridge when we get there. Today we are not crossing any bridge because she is too busy eating the bug she found on it and then pooping it out.

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Its just us, but it is us.

I always feel the need to update only if I have a picture to attach. I am camera retarded (seriously no one hand me a camera) and only like a few photos ever taken. Ever. So alas, my blogging goes unloved for mass amounts of time while I log on everyday just to see who else is having great time letting us all have a peek at their lives. So, no pictures today and probably none next time but I feel almost as if this is a mini journal and I should write more often. It has become a rare day I allow someone into my soul and in essence I only want to give you all whom read this the lovely sugar-coated version of us. It is not always delightful and perfect. Yet we are a real family with love pouring from the brim. This year has taught us much about love and loss. Perhaps when we are old and looking back we will have seen all the beautiful things that we have learned from our experiances from our early years as a family. Many things I have always believed have changed (evovled even) and my testimony of the gospel and the unconditional love for my family has grown stronger. I have days where we just need to get to tomorrow. Jaxon often is getting though an hour and we a grateful for a new sunrise- each and every day. There is no illusion here. We are happy and sad, angry and joyous, thankful and discontent. But we are the Nelson's and we are all we have. Eachother. My loveys.